Our Happy Times

Sometimes when the memories flashes back from time to time, it will always hurt. My only solution to suppress the pain was to inject it with physical pain or rather near death.

I am sorry if I hurt you but I can’t love with a broken heart. I tried to explain myself and the only thing I can hope for is your understanding. I can’t have any relationship. I don’t deserve you loving me. My career is a high risk profession and I might just die any moment and when the time comes, I don’t want to see you grief over me. The pain would be even harder to overcome.

I have a lot of happy memories with you. I wish I can be stand by you when you need me but I can’t. So I have to let you go. Your freedom is yours to keep.

I am the man who can’t be moved.